Haven't posted for awhile, but I am slowly beginning to place more trust in God. I have always struggled with this but hopefully I will get to the point where I can give Him everything and fear nothing.
I figured out, not too long ago, that my vocation first and foremost is a vocation to holiness. This ultimately leads to sainthood and eternity with God! The earthly vocations of single, married and religious life are merely ways in which to live out your call to holiness. I have been striving to become more holy. It's not really working because I don't think my whole heart and soul is in it just yet...I'm praying for that too!
I realised that holiness begins at home. I have done many things outside of home that I suppose keep me occupied, these things have all been in helping others. I find that when I get home I am generally too tired to help where my help is needed most. Simple things, like cleaning my room and washing the dishes were being neglected and so too was my prayer life.
I've learnt that before all I must put God first. Then comes my family and then the rest of the people in my life. By starting simple things, like doing the dishes or vacuming when I could have been lazy I have begun to find more fulfilment in life, and I still get to do everything else! But I'm making my family happy which is good!
Now I really, really need to continue working on my prayer life!!!! My challenge hasn't been the greatest, I did stick to it for a little while and still am somewhat, but I still struggle so much!
This weekend I am going to stay with some nuns. I am praying that I will be open to God the whole time I am there. I'm really quite nervous, I really don't know what will happen!
I'm also currently writing an article which will be posted on here soon :)
Well keep me in your prayers and I will pray for you!
God Bless,
Montana x
